Something Random

Ok, so our campus paper (made especially by me) was chosen to represent the class!! Woohoo! I feel damn proud really.

^ Hehehe~ nothing much… I was just bored.

^ And another one…

An Unexplainable Feeling of Pain

How can they do this to me?

I’ve always been the kind of daughter who does everything you want her to do, simply nods her head and gets to work, or keeps to herself whatever she wants to spit out. I don’t understand what kind of sin have I done in order for me to be treated like this. I’ve always hoped and hoped. I believed in your words. Never did I lose trust in them, no matter how stupid your promises are.

But this time, it’s different. You know the quote, “Fool me once, stupid you… Fool me twice, stupid me.” I believe that, that is the perfect line for the current situation.

Case Scenario:

First Year
Near the end of my first year, I was promised to migrate to Japan. I was all giddy and excited because finally, I would be somewhere I want to be. I would be in a place that I could sing in Japanese without getting laughed at. I was so ecstatic. It’s an unexplainable feeling of ecstasy. I was so happy. But then I discovered about my dad… and the shit that he had done.

It felt like I fell down from a building. My dreams and my hopes… crushed just like that. I can’t believe it. It hurts so much, I cried about it. There were times that I fought with other people just so that I would have a reason to cry. Just because, in case they ask… I would say… “Because he/she did this…” and not because… “They destroyed me…”. I felt sorry for myself. I felt sorry because my mom had to deal with my dad’s stupidness.

Second Year

Suddenly, I was back to my old self. The happy-go-lucky type of girl… who had the world within her palms. She’s smart and was well acquainted. No one noticed the pain in her eyes. No one noticed the loneliness she felt. It hurts for her more because she was surrounded with all these people… but the loneliness still filled her like a nightmare.

That girl is me. The sadness was masked with the laughs and smiles that I give away to my friends. It was all hidden thats why it hurts more. Because it’s filling me up… as if I’m drowning inside.

And again, I was promised something. This time, it was a 2 month vacation in Japan. Again, I was happy. I WAS SO HAPPY. I was SO SO SO SO SO HAPPY.

But you know what… I got crushed… again. And it hurts so much I can’t breathe… everything I think about it… tears well up in my eyes. I already planned everything I wanted to do…

How can they do this to me?
They’ve crushed my dreams and my hopes.
I feel like a walking corpse right now.
I don’t think this feeling of pain will pass away anytime.

Battle Royale; Seriously?

Ok, so I’ve come across this movie once. I never really cared about it until I read about the summary.

Battle Royale, a film by the veteran Japanese director Kinji Fukasaku, tells the story of a dystopic future in which each year, a randomly-selected 9th grade class is kidnapped and sent to a deserted island where they are equipped with weapons and are forced to kill each other until one survivor is left. The movie, which premiered in Japan on December 16, 2000 amidst much controversy, is based on a bestselling novel by Koushun Takami.

What a weird storyline. Seriously, you kidnap a class of 9th grade students, leave them at a desert to kill each other? For what price? The motive is??

Now I’m curious to see the movie. -o-